okay I'm back!

So here I am again, typing, thinking. That can be a pretty bad combination I tell you. It has been some time since I have brought myself back to this place. There are perhaps a few reasons, none of them good. I guess in the end I am stuck against the wall in the haunting reality of actually doing something with my words. Letting them escape from my mind and into yours is so frightening. Like those dreams when you are nude in front of the whole class and your penis is too small or you didn't shave. Something potentially scarring like that. I want to be heard, I want to call out but the echo can be overwhelming. So here I am, hoping all of my kind readers have not abandoned me as I have you. It was a moment, OK months of weakness, I'm sorry! I vow to suck it up and be what I need to be, a writer. It is in me trying to escape, pouncing on unsuspecting friends during e mails. Now truly that is no way to treat my delicate rants, is it? So hold on: I'm back! I apologize in advance for any times I have or will offend you.